“and that you be renewed in the SPIRIT of your mind, and put on the new self, which in the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the truth. Therefore, laying aside falsehood, SPEAK TRUTH each one of you with his neighbor, for we are members of one another. Ephesians 4:23-25

I am pursuing ordained ministry in the United Methodist Church.

This was never on the fore front of my mind until my third child was nearing his due date. God was speaking to me laying his plans out fiercely on my heart. Detailing a map that I would later learn how to read. I heard HIM calling. I listened but said wait.

God is a patient God.           God is not in a hurry.           He has eternity.           I want control.

My plan was not his plan all along. I need to release my plan. I need to look at the fork in the road and trust that this is where I go to seek his face.

My heart is sad and crying out. I long to know why. I am like a four year old asking the same question over and over.

I am tired, but not wary.

I know that my strength comes for the Lord. I lay my life at the foot of the cross and tell him what I have told him before. I will go where you send me.

I will go

You hear my prayers and I RELEASE my plans to you.


3 thoughts on “Release

  1. wow! sounds like you have a lot going on! I hope God clearly reveals His plans for you….tucked in Romans 12:2…His promise to let us in on knowing His will….I am a pastor’s wife too and truly your plate is never ever empty! sometimes its overflowing (most of the times) i hope you have a great support system and understanding friends!

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