There are days when the noise level of having four children eats away at my mind, body and soul. There are days I just need to run away and have a cup of coffee and take a break.
But this morning. I sat in the quiet and reflected over the last year. It has been a crazy year. You kiddos have been so patient and loving and I am grateful you are apart of my life.
Now I need a break not from you. But from being tired, from hurting, from being sick, from being busy. I need a break so that I can be a good mama to you and a good wife to your daddy. I love you too much to get overwhelmed today. I love you too much to go crazy today. I love you too much to know that it’s okay to say…I just need a break.
I hope that you’ll understand when I turn on a move and put the baby down for a nap and take a hot shower, it’s not cuz I don’t want to spend time with you…I just need a break. I hope you’ll understand that someday will just be better if you hang out with daddy for a while, cuz I need to get out and get a cup of coffee. Not because I need anymore caffeine, but because I need to feel like me. I need a break from translating toddler jargon and tantrums. I need a break from diapers and bottles.